passing on loot builds character
WoW
The World of Warcraft has been in turmoil lately. Several server outages continue as the serves go up and down and up and down. In the short term sure it bothers me, in the long term it doesn't. Nearly every online game world i've been to has had server issues at one time or another. EQ1, AC2, and now WoW. So its like a calling card saying "go do something else!", so I try. I honestly try. I surf, I ponder editing, maybe clean up my room... but i keep checking to see when the servers are back up! Addicted maybe? Its just fun really. It doesnt consume me really, in fact all I really wanted to do is to see if my auctions sold.
Is the auction house addiction in WoW like being addicted to ebay? Constantly checking seeing whats new and how your items are doing, are they being bid on. I sometimes put items up for sale that I really want to keep but I'll put them up there for outrageous prices in the hope that they dont sell or that if that do I'll get my $$$ for them. Seeing my reactions to the auction house in WoW makes me glad I dont ebay.
I've been thinking about the little occurances in games lately. Like passing on loot items. Typically its need before greed on loot. Hey I need that sword.. or HEY I want that dagger! I find that the more you decide on need before greed, you somehow build character. Yer not a loot monger. As a result you get some kinda odd respect token. Maybe its just me but I yern to group with non-loot-mongers, despite how bad they are in their abilites. Well a good leader that knows a dungeon is nice but a loot whore geeze get outa my way!!
IMPROV
Other than gaming, or the lack there of due to server mayhem, I've signed up for an improv class that I hope will take more of my creative time in the coming months. I'm actually kinda nervous about it really. Which Mary thinks is funny.. "but yer so confident..." am I? I mean its one thing to heckle and joke for the fuck of it, but in a group setting, to be a team player, I dunno if im good at that. I mean I shot Bob in Battlefield 1942, I like to deathmatch sure, but cooperate? That seems risky. I dunno. Actually I'm looking forward to it. I'm overdue for really chasing after this. I know I've got natural talent when it comes to comedy, lets see how far I can take it.
NOT HEARING YOU
Work has been congested lately. Taking just one day off last week has created a shift in my brain of not caring so much really. I really tune out conversations that don't matter to me, and as a result has had some mixed reactions at work. Some folks have noticed and have either mentioned something to me or have decided to turn up the volume even louder. I'm hanging on to bliss as hard as I can. Its working so far really. One reason why is because i'm editing this week again.
CLOSE TO THE EDIT
Editing creates a soothing calming sensation in my mind. Its a known. Its a done deal. I can edit. Video editing that is for those that don't know me here. It's probably the first and longest lasting true skill I think I have. I love to edit. Well, usually I do. I do miss making trailers for japanese animation, those were fun and I miss editing more for me, just whatever comes to mind. But even so work edits arent all that bad, provided they take place in the Avid. I was talking to myself in the car the other day on the way home, what takes me 8hrs can be done in 6 and if i really crank it up that can be 4, and I remember way back when, when I had to do it in 2. That goes for pure editing btw, not digitizing which is like anti-editing. The mundane pulling of footage, and while batch digitize works nicely in a post production enviroment, we dont really have nice tape decks here that allow for that easily. Actually batch digitizing should be easier than editing, but on this latest project it didnt work. Something about the funky time code issues we were having. Ahh well, thats all behind us. We're editing now. Next up, I'm going to attempt some graphics magic, do a little serious magic, and then author a dvd, which I havent done in ages. So I'm thinking ulead's DVD movie factory, or something. I dunno what "the" tool is at the moment.
DRAWING
For the last 4 years or so, since i've returned from texas, I've wanted to draw so badly lately. I keep eyeing classes at CCAD or dublinarts assocication, or anything, just someone teach me to draw. This week I said screw it, I'll just doodle my way to the top and I started drawing. I love drawing perspectives right away. Strange little buildings, semi 3d looking things, things like that i can draw, i think, even poorly, but people, yikes - no idea! Its fun. Its actually another form of release too really. I can play out my strange ideas, manifestations, whatever I want and I dont care if its funny or not, just draw it. One of the big lessons I've learned over time for creativity is to NOT censor your own creations, even if they suck, or are poorly created, dont toss them out. Just stick it out, get it out, if they suck so what, something made you draw them, so get them out. The more you analyze yourself, the more you put yerself up to pieced out and analyzed every single aspect of who you are, what you did, oh look how bad that is, the more you do that, the more you lose whats being funneled into you. Let it out.