prozac nation
Today I made the comment to a friend that "no I dont want you on prozac..." and of course they just told me "dan I've been on prozac you know that right?..." well no I didnt know that. So a conversation broke out, pros and cons of prozac and my beef against it. What's my issue with prozac? Well just seems to me I know alot of folks on prozac. Are we all clinicly depressed? Ok sure some of us are, share in some history of it etc, but more and more I seem to meet folks that are on it and more so their kids are going on it for the heck of it it seems like. Like got a cold pop a cough drop, down a bit, pop a prozac.
Heck theres a bit of depression in my family as well so yes I've had to deal with family members and the issue etc, but I guess I see it as a last resort vs a do this first kinda thing. Generally though this goes back to me being the "wood block biter for pain guy" vs the "orange bill bottle nation" i'm surrounded by. My sister would tease me now and then "oh you'd just rather bite on a wood block to ease the pain right?" and I'd say HELL YA, while she'd take x y or z to ease the pain. I get this distrust of docs from my father I think. He'd always perscribed endurace to pain vs drugs. Shake it off, get over it, mind over matter! Sure I just dropped a railroad tie on my foot.. wailing in pain limping around the yard - shake it off!! Or that classic headache...- drink some tea, some water... maybe it was cheaper back then. Drugs can be costly ya know.
Then I get the question from friends on prozac, - you know what it feels like dan? Yes and no. I've had my depression slopes before, but I never considered a pill would bring me out of them. I guess after watching some family memebers go thru it I wanted to endure it. For me though, its a cycle, i'm definately an ups to downs kinda guy. I'll have the highest of the highest but then the lowest of the lows to follow, and I can perdict them pretty well too. Its like I know where i'm at on the cycle. Even in the midst of good things happening in my life, once that wheel spins up to downerness, i gotta ride it thru ya know. I guess ive been spared real depression but I wonder how many folks are on prozac just because of a little moodyness or worse yet just bummer of a day. I dunno folks. I worry about our dependence on drugs.
It wasnt until I started working out did I realize fully just how chemically based we were. I never considered myself one big walking chemistry set. Its a frame of mind I'm much more appericative of now however. Garbage in, garbage out.. well usually, definately in the case of fast food.
But back to the depression is it mind and body or purely body. Personally I want to believe its both mind and body. Can you will yourself to goodness despite the bodys ache. And as my friend tells me its mental really, so if thats the case can't you fight it? I guess I wont really know cause for all the deep down troddin depressions i've ever had in my life, i never once considered prozac as an option. But then its like "you just dont understand" and trust me I want to understand. So part of me is like well show me what yer like off it.. and then its like "oh no i cant do that..." Ok. So were stuck. Hey ya know as long as yer happy really I cant say jack really. I just want you happy. Sometimes though I feel like we freak ourselves out, fear of fear itself just consumes our soul. We're terrifed for reasons we dont understand. Afraid of what we dont understand, even if thats ourselves. We all need to be more honest with ourselves. And its ok ya know. Its ok!