5am
Now playing: Fellowship - It's A Mystery
Maybe the blog is a bad idea. I've thought about that lately. My own journal posted to the masses, is it really a wise thing to do? Explore my own thoughts, feelings, ideas, revelations, questions, promises, failures, successes, dreams, aspirations, apparitions.. Ok that was freebe. I dunno.. is it really good for me to be here writing this? I can't help but wonder, and surely at times, a big no goes HERE. But at the same time I say yes, what the hell. Though the older ya get it seems you maybe more relaxed inside, your innerself is fairly comfy really, u know who you are, u have the path, yet patencie still wears thin on the outside encounters. And hell, well what is that really. Is hell not doing what you need to do? Want to do? Have to do?
Just cause I use the blog as soundingboard doesn't mean I long for communication from the outside really. Its like a piece of art, it just is. Accept it or not. Questioning doesn't really apply, the moment has passed. This sentence is done. This one too. Tomorrow it will be another post from another side of the flooz. Maybe a familliar taste but still new. Maybe that's why I like to blog. Its new now, and in seconds later its not. Maybe I'm a newness junkie running high on my own ramblings. Least its cost effectivie.
Blogjet btw does not work with WinAmp 3+, so theres one mystery solved. The other interesting thing to note in Blogjet is that images while resized still seem to be their full res in the image directory. Who cares? Well it slows down yer blog a bit to have a big ass image, and then you resize it, and you think, no i resized it, well you didn't, it looks like sure, but it still big back there, deep.. in the trenches.
Now playing: DJ deepsky - Legend
I keep putting off an iPod but maybe... I do need to get one. And I really need to find my montana shades. I had a cool pair of red shades i bought in montana, they were the cheap, really cheap utterly cheap kind. But I loved looking out into the world in a deep red tint. It was sooo nice. I need to get some good shades. Lately shopping for them around town has really sucked. I can't seem to find any decent tinted shades around.
Projects are coming together this summer. It started with many little projects like cds, I tossed all my cd cases, begone i say. Some 800 cd cases history, banished to the recycling bin. Thats alot cds. And most of them were singles and mix cds.. crazy. Next up is the continued clean presence project, that which i do not use, must go. Clothes, things, old crap, all of it, and even the 4 additional copies of dark city on dvd, history. I need work space. Work space for a new pc downstairs to run the mp3 tunes and to play bit torrent files, as if I'll ever have time for that. But another tivo doesnt make sense down there, and a slimp3 box is another 250 for the wifi, and I don't want to spend that. That's precious massage chair money.
Then we come to the many vhs tapes that will be tossed on the tivo/dvdr to be remasted onto dvd.
Then even more space to be had.. then.. something incredible will occur. Like painting, drawing, sketching, shirtmaking, poster creating, airbrushing.. who knows. Its happening.
Woah... just played a few hours of Painkiller there. I'm stuck in the big star on the ceiling room. I'm not quite sure how to get outa this room, or live for that matter theres a hulk after me. This game has been a hilarious carnage fest so far. Lots of exploding barrels and boxes, which are always conviently located next to groups of spawning mobs. The baddies thus far have been beautifuly texture mapped and animated. The axe throwing monks are particularly nice along with the big guys running with lit barrels of TNT on them. When you see those guys from a distance i always laugh. Someone had a great time makin this game. I like how baddies explode from the groud and spring to life. Very cool.