Floozy Speak!

Early 2004 and I've been kinda out of it lately. Something at the Hunan Lion took me down on tuesday, least I blame the Lion, actually I blame me first. I love that basil chicken but it never occured to me there may be something in that i'm allergic too. Its one of those spicy tastes great oh god im sick now meals. This was the second time it did it to me, last time i thought it was something else. I've been drinking water and sleeping for nearly 72hrs as a result of it. Today i'm still out of it but feel like an empty shell. Divide by zero minus seven etc.

Maybe its the weather. I dunno what triggers it but I know this feeling, maybe its depression, for as much as I'd like to think depression me, nah no way.. I feel its definately possible. I havent actually attempted to really eat right in a long time, or maybe i need excersise, or maybe i'm just trying to battle a force that is here now and you cant do anything until i leave.

Depression is in the family, and i've felt it before. Maybe I tie it to that feeling that theres no spark lately, no spark is motivating me. Is the loss of inspiration my way of defining depression? Maybe i'm just sick and sleepy and fighting a cold and not depression. But i can say that weather does something to me, crappy day out and i feel it, sunny day out and i feel that too. So somethings up, just cant place it between sickness and depression. Yesterday was sickness, today i feel empty. Recovering maybe.

I long for silence. When was the last time it was really quiet for you? No on going hum of electronics, no buzz of something near by or lights. Just the wind outside trying desperately to get in.. thats a nice sound. My memory tells me the last time i was truly silent was in Montana in that bed and breakfast house. That old house filled with antiques, magazines from the 30's and an old dog the size of a bear. That was silence. Again only the wind guided my reaching out to find a sound if any.

I need to get those noise cancellation head phones. Then maybe i could experience no sound freedom.

About the only thing that was good yesterday other than sleeping or listening to the wind howl outside my windows was catching up on tivo. Ok that and drinking water, i love water but I fear the taelons.

So aside from being totally out of it what else is happening?

daHiatus on daDevelopment is over, that should make a certain programmer friend of mine happy. And i've decide 2004 will be the year of sticking to the guns, I did that last year but only after i got really beat up a few times and kept running into the same answer. This time around, its just funny, ideas i had two years ago keep coming back to the table and my gut says yes and while there will always been folks that said no, this time i just plan to ignore them. I keep an open mind on them cause i think maybe of the crazy ideas i have are just that, sparks in a vacum, some ideas could fly not all of them surely.. but i hate it when i have a gut feeling on something and then abandon it cause of the general vibe of my peers only to then end up back on this page come 6 months later.

Not always but alot of times the future is on your lap, it just arrived and it hasnt checked in yet. It gives you a window of opportunity. Need to act on that more. And debate less with those that dont see your vision. Its the year of vision perhaps.

"Photographs tell our stories across the years and over the terrain of our lives" - i'm revisiting the WWMX tech from Microsoft Research today. Catching up on some blogs since my mind is blank at the moment. I remember seeing this tech awhile back and not really acting on it. I think i need to give it a whirl again for work purposes. I could see how a tool like this could be interesting for research. Especially the Travelogue tool. This will also be the year of the dan gps intergration... mainly for varied research reasons. I want to get back to mapping an experience, like Gallery Hop night in the short north, need a good pilot project so i can study and consider how i'd sell the concept to other kinds of events. That doesnt really make any sense i bet but I still plan to do it.

The sun is out.. does that change anything? Maybe. All I can really think about is 5pm and going back to sleep.

Maybe i need to come up with my own law.. Flooz Law, like this this or this. Currently surfing this. On yes and another blog tool here...

I wonder if this list ever gets updated.

Anyone remember when I used to be obsessed with fonts?

I've adjusted my bloglines roll, its not as intense as it once was. Reading less. Ahhh neat newness in google.

Well its about time tablet users got a blogging tool for handwritten notes and such.. now if they'd just release it.

We knew it was coming its about time its here. Wheels of Zeus ya baby ya.

Is anyone still reading this?

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11:30am, feeling better.. maybe catching up on blogs and blogging itself is good therapy for me. Since one of these babies walked.. maybe I can upgrade.