need to stop
wasting effort... effort is wasted all the time.. lately alot and its discourging, i like to over deliver but nooooooooooo... grr it just sends a message of dont do that.. and turns me off.. i guess i want it my way maybe a little too much. still just gets on my nerves... tells me not to care and i like caring but i gotta not care so much.. how does that work... i hate wasted video, whats the point.